Here or There

4 11 2009

I have recently been reading a book by Francis Chan called “Forgotten God.”  Its a great book and its challenged me in many ways already but there was a question Chan raises in his book that really made me stop and think.  Chan is talking to a man who has ask their deacons to lay hands on him and pray for his healing because he is suffering through a terminal illness.  Chan then asks him a question that wrecked my world tonight.  ”Why do you want to be healed? Why do you want to stay on this earth?”  If someone were to ask you that question what would you say?  So many times I’ve heard people asked to be prayed for and countless times people have asked me to pray for them or their loved ones during tough times.  And each time we pray for healing and we plead with God to keep them here on earth with us and tonight for the first time it really hit me that maybe we’re going about it all wrong.  Why would I want to stay here?  Now there are obvious reasons why selfishly I would want to stay here on earth.  My wife is awesome and we’re fixing to have our first child.  I can’t wait to meet my boy for the first time.  I want to be here for them.  I remember what it was like when my father passed away and I remember how hard it was for me and my mother.  I want to be here for them.  So I guess the better question is, do I really believe that heaven is better than here on earth?  Can my lives desire be summed up by saying that I live my life for the glory of God?  Is my focus on the glory of the God whatever the results?  I’m not sure thats where I always line up.  God mold me into someone who seeks your glory in everything.

Peace & Love

 

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Notes to my son

3 11 2009

Man its been a while since I sat down and wrote on this thing. I think I need to do a better job of this but finding the time, or making the time has been kinda tough. This Sunday Jaime and I will be welcoming our son to the world and I can’t begin to explain how excited and scared to death I am. I’m the guy who’s scared of little kids. They seem to like me for some reason but I’m really scared of them…haha I’ve honestly never really been around little kids and especially babies. But all those worries seem to really not matter right now because this ones mine. Man that sounds weird to say. My son, or my child thats just wild on so many levels. There are so many thoughts that run through my mind right now. Like, who will he look like? Will he be more like me or more like Jaime? Will he love the Heels like I do and if for some reason he doesn’t will his grandmother take him in…hahaha Just kidding. Will he be right handed or left handed? Is he going to be loud or quiet, hyper or calm? So many things that go through my head right now that I have no answer to but am really excited to find out about. Guess I’m going to find out soon enough. Maybe his birth will inspire me to write on this more. Who knows.

Peace & Love